He shifted himself carefully, becoming a sheild between Tanren and the bottle.
He noticed something flare in his eyes. What? A want to get to it? No. It was only a quarter empty before he took it away and results were already settling in.
He saw his eyes glaze over, and something tugged, almost painfully, inside of his chest.
That wasn't what he expected to hear.
He felt his own expression turn quizzical.
He jumped at the demand, the raise in volume from soft to loud startling.
"Goddamn it, are you listening to me?!" He gripped the front of his hoodie and before he knew it he was pulled closer. From here, he could see his eyes, such a beautiful shade, weren't just glazed.. they were pained.
All he could let out were a few small squeaks of questioning.
"...Talk... talk.. talk... just please.."
The unthinkable happened. The thing that hurt his heart just to think about. Tears were forming, right then and there. Like the two of them were in some kind of symphony, his own eyes grew damp.
He wanted to.
To talk. He really did. But even the thought of it constricted his throat like some kind of serpent.
The only thing he could ask for was his expression to show some kind of remorse, some kind of want to do what he asks, because he really does want to.
"...Has it gotten that bad?" He rested his forehead on his shoulder, the grip on his hoodie loosening and his arms sliding around his back. "...Tch. And I wasn't there to - to- stop it - I.. I wasn't there to help -"
He felt Tanren start to shake against him, and instinctively Jin's arms wrapped around him. Tanren pulled him closer immediately at the response.
"..I want to help. I want it to stop. I want to hear your voice again. I want to get you away from there and here with me again..! You... you can't turn into him, Jin... You can't not give and shit about me either..."
Jin didn't know whether to laugh or cry at that. Him, stooping to his level? Him, forgetting about Tanren...? Never.
But he couldn't say that, any of that, as much as he wanted to, so he just shifted his chin to rest on his shoulder and let his own shoulder grow wet.
"...Y...You just don't get it... You've only been here for three days and I've already felt better than I have in four years... Do you know how much I've missed this? Missed this warmth?"
He understood. He missed it too. In fact, he can't even remember feeling warm at all for the past four years, it was like when they had to separate all the warmth in the world just... disappeared.
"...I'll stay, then..." It was the first thing he'd said in months. His throat burned at the feel, but it was nothing compared to the liberation he just felt when Tanren almost audibly gasped and held him tighter then ever.
"You mean it...? You're not kidding.. you can't be kidding.."
Speak again. Come on. You did it once.
"...If y-you'll ha..ve m..me..." He groaned a little after he squeezed that out, his throat throbbing but it was worth it.
"Of course... damn it... yes... Stay... stay.. stay..."
He felt him smile against his shoulder, a real, albeit small, smile. And in that moment, that was all that mattered.
So cling to what you know and never let go
You should know things aren't always what they seem
I said I'd never let you go, and I never did
I said I'd never let you fall and I always meant it
If you didn't have this chance then I never did
You'll always find me right there, again
- Have Faith in Me - A Day to Remember
W-Well... what to say xD;
First of all, these two are Tanren and Jin, characters for
's story, Kioku to Senritsu x//D;;
This is probably a few days after they've reunited
from their separation; Tanren moving away.
Jin comes from an abusive household, and it only escalates after Tanren moves, since he has no form of protection anymore, and he just doesn't really care
, after he's gone. So by then, he's basically a mute. Can't talk without it physically hurting, and I can't help but imagine Tanren would miss the sound of his voice, even if it's just a little, after four years.
Well, I-I hope I didn't fail Tanneh, onee-sama, and I hope it's r-relatively in character, even if this probably isn't cannon at all? o///rz;;
A-And sorry about the randomness, it kind of just happened before I could stop it or myself x//D;;
goddamn even if it's a pain to doll it I love Jin's haiiiiir. Every version is so fun. <3*shot* TannehandJin - Each other
Tanneh le peanut butter kitteh -
Jin le jelleh/jam kitteh *shot*- moi~ technically, though he'd say he's Tanren's, solely, as stated before x'D <3
Have Faith in Me - A Day to Remember [link]
Base - [link]